So apparently I get my own parking space until April 26!!! By now most of you know that Adam and I are due to have a baby in April and we are so excited! Of course I still have my worries about something going wrong, but I'm hopeful and so thrilled at the same time! Here's the story about how we found out and how it's been going.
After our miscarriage we waited the allotted time before trying again. Of course I kept waiting to see changes in my body to let me know that I was pregnant. Well, I was pretty much convinced that I wasn't because I didn't really feel all that different and I only had a couple of days before my monthly visitor was supposed to arrive. It was Saturday, August 13th and we were invited to go to Lagoon with Adam's family. I figured that since I didn't feel pregnant I should go on the rides and not worry about it. My sister-in-law, Brooke, and I decided to go on the Samuri:) Adam thought I was crazy but I went anyway. After the ride I felt completely nauseated! I opted out on the rest of the rides that night because it wouldn't go away. On the way home Adam said I should just take a pregnancy test, but I didn't want to because I wanted to wait until Sunday when I should have been starting my cycle. I still felt sick throughout the night and decided to take a test in the morning. I woke up, took the test, and then prepared myself to see a negative. I didn't want to get my hopes up. I set the timer and then came back when it beeped. There were two lines and I quickly ran to show Adam!!!!! As excited as I was, it was then that I began to worry. I remember before I had a miscarriage that I thought nothing could go wrong and that everything would be fine. Now it was a different story because I had been down the "everything didn't go well" path and I worried about everything.
I called my doctor to set up an appointment and they asked me to come in at 10 weeks. I explained to the nurse what happened with my last pregnancy and she was so nice about it. She told me that I could actually come in at 6 weeks and have a viability ultrasound to see if everything was progressing as long as my insurance covered it. I called my insurance and they said they would! It brought me some comfort that I wouldn't have to wait as long but also worry that there wouldn't be a heart beat again. For a two weeks I kept waiting to feel sick and I actually didn't start feeling sick until a couple of days before my appointment. We went in and there was a heart beat! I made my appointment for nine weeks and then started school. Everyday brought its ups and downs. If I wasn't sick I worried. If I was cramping I worried. If I didn't feel pregnant I worried. Thanks to Adam, my sister, mother-in-law, dad and Kathy for listening to all of my worries and trying to reassure me. I made many phone calls for the next three weeks. I had a lot of cramping during week 7 and I was thoroughly convinced that something was wrong, but then I kept getting more morning sickness all throughout the day and the day of my appointment finally came.
I had to get a root canal at 1 and then had our ultrasound at 3:30. I was so nervous and nauseated. They quickly brought us back to the ultrasound room and I was on the verge of tears. She did the ultrasound and all I wanted to see was the FLICKER again. After a few seconds I saw the flicker and the nurse turned up the sound so we could hear the heart beat! It was such a comforting sound! I started crying and Adam just gave me a kiss and held my hand. We met with the doctor, did blood tests and then decided that our due date was on April 26. Although I still worry about little things that happen, I still have morning sickness. It's the worst at night right before I go to bed and all day on the weekends. I'm grateful to feel sick (even though it's not so fun) and I'm grateful for the love and support of my husband and family:) I'm gaining confidence everyday and I'm learning to leave it up to my Heavenly Father and trust in his plan. Again, we are so excited and thrilled to welcome a precious baby into our lives and home!
